Never Knew

I'm doubting myself a lot nowadays.
Since graduate I feel like I have lost confidence, control and directions in life, slowly but surely.
I'm doubting my abilities, skills and the path I'm currently taking.

The thoughts that have never crossed my mind now starting to stay.

I know I am not someone that likes to dwell in misery and depression thoughts, in fact I hated it .
I hated how it affect my emotions, mood and the energy around me and making me doubting myself easily.

I understand perfectly this is not the end of the world or any world crisis and there is so much more difficulties to come in this life and that scares me. The uncertainties in life is scaring me.

My 2014

It's 7.00 a.m in the morning and I'm still awake.
2014 had been a good year, I've learned a lot.
Dreams comes slow but they go fast.
You need to fight or work had for what you want, take every opportunity when it comes to you.
Good and bad things happen, we can't control them,
but we are capable to control how we react.
If bad things happened take it as a lesson and learn from it. Be strong.
It's easier said than done, I'm still struggling to learn.
People come and go, things change, and people too.
Not everyone are genuinely nice.
Don't always take things too seriously, you will only get yourself hurt.
Be with your family, cherish every minute you have with them
because they are the only one who will be there no matter what happened.
I'm happy and thankful for everything that had happened in my life,
to those people who had loved me and had been there for me when I needed them,
Thank you.
Bye 2014.

A wake up call

Recently I came across this quote by sky and it actually woke me up from my comfort zone .

"I don't think things over before I do it. I'm not like : maybe if I do this , it'll lead into this? 
its more like:I did this, maybe I shouldn't have done that..."

I'm always afraid , a scary cat or maybe worst a coward, and think too much into things . I think and think and think and it ends up nothing, doing nothing.
I'm always like : Oh if I did this maybe I will fail , or maybe people might not like it or so. Its the what ifs and the maybes that stopped me.
I know a little thinking or consideration before doing things is good, it prevent us to get into trouble , but sometimes too much of it that might stop people for doing great things, because maybe who knows it will end up great after trying.

And that day I randomly asked my dad about his business how he first started and things like that and asked him when he first started his business didn't he think of failure like what if this business fails?and  the money, effort will be gone . His answer is just short and sweet . Nope. 

That's when it really hits me, people who thinks about failure even before they start is a loser.Right, that's why I have to change this attitude of mine, cause I'm not a loser ! I don't want to end up one .

My boss always tell me that when you meet with problem don't just stop there or worst avoid it, just think of a way out , there's always way out .

I don't know why recently I'm always writing this kind of things (like a self note), maybe because I've turned 20 and turned mature? Or maybe I've read more, see more and know more and get inspire by things around me? I don't know, maybe.

Anyway life is short and I have to chase my dreams. I cannot let my attitude chain me down . I have to be brave and positive .

Don't be afraid to try, it isn't scary, nothing is more scary that death , so don't be afraid .Do what you want to do , cause we are young , I am young , take risk and stop the thinking and do it now!